Little Joys

My eldest daughter is back at college. I was well enough to drive there (only 10 minutes away) to bring her a few things. She wanted me there to help her make her bed and I wanted that memory for her. It's funny now I think about making memories a lot now that time has a different value to me. I will be spending time with my other daughter this weekend- maybe going for a walk and out to breakfast. People who I love matter so much to me; they did before and it is just amplified now. I feel like time is so undervalued- I definately took it for granted before this diagnosis. And now that I am grieving what might be lost- in terms of days I have here- I want to be sure that I spend every day doing something that I love or spending some time each day with someone I love.

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